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My Old Lectures

Sometimes, I’d like to disown some of the lectures I’ve written. Like when someone references it in a discussion. Or when I happen to be revisting some of my own, and see one that’s gotten worse with age. Fortunately the ones this usually applies to, with how far back they were written and the age I was, that’s not to much of a real issue… It’s not that I ever really want to pretend it was someone else that wrote them, it’s that I’ve come far enough in my understanding and actual practice that I pretty much just look down my nose at those past writings. None of them are that bad either, to be honest; especially not for what they were at the time.

Some of them, I even have enough fondness for to rewrite. I did that with The Necessity of Power. It’s just that I’ve come so far since writing things like Power, Arrogance, & Corruption and The First Line: The Lie, I hardly know where to begin when I think about revisions. They seem so alien to me, and clumsy as hell. The message wasn’t conveyed clearly enough, the tone wasn’t as confident or definitive. When it comes to catologuing though… whether they fall under the category of what I’m talking about here or not, it would be nice to have some of the dates for when I wrote them. A select few… their age really ought to show as much as possible, because they’re just so far off from what I might say now.

That is, if they’re included, because in the end maybe they just don’t deserve to be archived or preserved. Case in point being with something like Power, Arrogance, & Corruption. You could probably find it somewhere anyways, with enough research. But as far as making an effort to keep it “logged”, so to speak, it just isn’t good enough to include. I kind of revisited the same things I wrote about recently in Arrogance & Modesty, and while that’s far from what I’d consider an adequate ‘replacement lecture’, it still gets across a more up to date understanding of arrogance than what I had back when I wrote my first contribution to the written lectures of the Sith.

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Reinventing The Steel

The blog I started under a different name while I was absent from the FA, created with a fresh pen name that wasn’t saddled with anything but potential, has proven to be an interesting exploration, an interesting experiment. Certain elements that came out for me in putting it together will – actually already have, but will continue to – inevitably bleed over and come through in their own way here. Hence the title of this post. I may even nab some of my mind splatterings from there and add them here. I won’t necessarily abandon the other blog, I just have serious doubts it can be as satisfying or enjoyable as the one you’re at right now. It was was a nice change in stride and a bit of a learning experience in getting a feel for this medium from a very, very different (and in some ways far less restrictive) perspective.

You might have already noticed there are a few symbols up at the top of the site now. I got them there by tinkering with the text that’s supposed to appear at the top with this particular theme. They’re (4) trigrams (of the I Ching) that, combined (lower/higher & lower/higher) make two hexagrams which have current significance to a question I ‘divined’ the answer to. Not that I see ‘divining’ as much more than a means of bringing things into focus and taking broad advice or predictions and seeing how they can be applied to what’s currently going on in life. Anyways, there’s that slight tweak, along with a new image for the site, a new avatar, and an updated, shortened bio for my profile (which I mentioned in an earlier post just before the splurge of drafts, but have since revised again).

“I’m known pretty much everywhere online as (Darth) Draconis; I founded OotS in October of 2006, I studied at the FA for a time, was knighted (sometime in ’09 if memory serves) and served as head of the dark aspect there until March of ’13, when during an unannounced leave of absence I was removed from my position. I am a devotee of darkness, one could say, and a Sith (Realist) practitioner.”

There may be a few other reinventions to things here – to the way I do things and the way it’s all presented – as I go along, playing in my playground. I’m not sure anyone following along will necessarily enjoy the ride, but I am. So onward we go…

Destroy to Create (fragment)

Ressurection needs pieces of your death to fuel the rise and rebirth. Creation must be fueled by destruction. Destruction fuels and nourishes creations. Destroy to Create.

When it comes to making changes in your life, undergoing transformation, creating something new… there has to be sacrifices to fuel it. You’ve got to destroy in order to create.

(Written October 15th, 2012)

Relates to…

The Dance Of Mortality

∞Ω∞

In this thriving, vibrant garden,
This strange and shadowy place,
Both life and death dance 
With valiant, sordid grace.

In this ethereal domain,
That wears a material, corporeal face,
They dance through wind and rain,
Maintaining their relentless pace.

The flowers will all bloom,
And the gardner watches, waits,
Picking where and when to groom.
Cutting out the ones he hates…

Of course, in time each flower dies.
Each blooming flowers’ petals must
Yield their shape and color,
Withering, wilting, and turning to dust.

But death makes way for rebirth,
The garden surviving, if only just,
Flowers ceaselessly renewed,
By new blossoms’ thrust.

And so both life and death do dance
With valiant, sordid grace,
In this sparse, violent garden,
This strange and shadowy place.

∞Ω∞